I’ve decided to participate this year. I have not made much of an effort to write since 2013. That year sucked and kicked off a downhill spiral of emotional chaos. Never in my life have my feelings been hurt so badly. My Granny died, someone really close to me broke my heart, and someone I guess I loved broke my heart. Sure, reading that sentence it seems trivial, but I’m leaving out ALL the details because it’s not your business.
I put away my notebooks, joined the Navy, and tried to forget. Please note that joining the Navy was somewhat in the plan before all of the foolishness went down. However, boarding that flight to Chicago, IL was freeing and the bus ride to Great Lakes, IL was even more freeing. Yes, people, boot camp was freedom for me. I didn’t have to answer a phone, hear any lies, listen to any excuses, argue, or deal with harassing phone calls. The sound of RDC’s barking orders was music to my ears.
Here it is 2016. I’ve slowly but surely started to pick back up my pen. My poetry book is still in the works. Poetry makes life more real. And when I started to brainstorm the poems for “Naked” 2013-2015 started to resurface. I put the pen down and put the book away. Welp, I’ve a degree in Sociology and studied Psychology as a hobby. I knew immediately that this meant I had not addressed everything that happened. I jumped on a plane and went to boot camp; away from it all. The truth is, it’s all still here.
I realized this even more when I read a new poem, “Notes” out loud. I wanted to hear how it sounded. What I didn’t expect was tears starting to creep up. I finished reading the poem, closed my notebook, and went to bed. Then today I see #NaNoWriMo has commenced. Ok, universe I’m listening!
My intent is to finish my poetry book before the month is over and to complete the first season of “The Other Side of the Fence” web series. I think it will be a nice way to inch closer to the ending of this year. The poetry book will be my first and perhaps my last. I haven’t decided.
I will be posting updates about my progress. You can catch me on Periscope @AngNaomi also. If I decide to do more vlogs, I will let you know or I’ll just post here.